Learning to let go.

I have never been one to let go of anything. In fact, I hold onto things longer than I should, to the point that it’s problematic.

I hold onto everything. From physical mementos in photo boxes and clothes that don’t fit to memories (the good and the bad) and grudges. I am really, really bad at forgiveness.

A few months ago, I took a yoga class that gave each person a card at the beginning of class. It was an option thing to focus on during meditation. Mine was about forgiveness being a gift to myself.

I cried at the end of class and really thought about how many people I just need to forgive, in order to simply let it go.

When I started working for myself in mid-December, I reached out to some of my favorite people who are on a similar path for any advice they could offer.

One person told me not to get attached to anything, whether it be good or bad, because “You can get a new job tomorrow”.

Honestly, I thought this was a piece of advice that I wouldn’t be able to really take to heart, given my personality. Would I even have the privilege of letting things go? Would I get enough job offers to care if some slipped through the cracks?

Yes.

Yes I would and I have absolutely had the privilege of saying no to jobs and/or clients that aren’t a fit. And let me tell you, there are SO many promising jobs that have come along, and they’ve disappeared the very next day.

Some of these jobs were big jobs, big enough to pay my monthly rent with one check. Some were smaller jobs, and others just weren’t going to be a fit.

But the truth is, I’ve been so busy that I haven’t had much time to dwell on lost opportunities. Even during a slow week (last week), I knew it was unnecessary to chase down lost jobs.

I keep reminding myself to have faith in this path, have faith that’s what’s meant to be will be, have faith that my skills are enough to succeed, and have faith that in this life, I am fulfilling my purpose.

As Kim Zolciak says, “Ask, believe, and receive.”

So far, it’s worked for me, and I’ve had work to do every single day (even on the weekends), with no real signs of slowing down. I also have some projects I’ve come up on my own in the works.

On top of that, I’ve been working really hard at getting rid of some of that physical junk I mentioned before. I have nearly 50 items for sale on eBay right now, and also on Poshmark.

I’ve cleaned out a third of my closet, saying goodbye to items I haven’t worn in years and things I know I’m not going to wear given my new wardrobe of leggings and a sweatshirt.

I know that letting go in any sense isn’t easy… but neither is holding onto things that are cluttering my space, my brain, and my life.

So, here’s to letting go of things that might not last, things that likely aren’t a fit, and to things that do not serve my ultimate purpose.

Thank u, next.

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5 Comments

  1. Nowhere Tribune

    I love getting rid of things. If there is an illness that is the opposite of hoarding, I have it. My wife is afraid to have a garage sale because she knows I’ll try to put everything in it, and I compulsively clean out my closet every season. On the other hand, I do not let go of grudges that easily.

    1. thebitterlemon

      I think cleaning out the closet every season is great! I have been slowly cleaning out my closet since I moved, which was 3 years ago & I don’t know how I still have stuff left! Interesting about the grudges though…

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