THAT’S RIGHT — my 3rd book, Lemon Drops, is finally here! This is the first time I’ve really felt relieved that a book of mine is published. The writing in Lemon Drops is some of my most personal. There’s stories in there I haven’t told anyone, and there’s poems that are very dear to me. I’m really happy to share them with you all.
So, let’s get the business out of the way before the REAL fun begins!
- You can purchase a printed version of Lemon Drops here.
- You can purchase a digital copy (for Kindle or Kindle App) of Lemon Drops here.
As a special treat, I wanted to share another excerpt from the book with you all:
My life started to revolve around the very little time we spent together, and I knew I deserved more than that. So, I finally snapped, grew a backbone, and ended things.
Of course, I was sad — okay, more like devastated — to let him go, but I knew it was the right thing to do. I had spent years living on a dream that he would get on one knee, present me with a ring and a beautiful life together.
I imagined us living in his brick house, nestled under Louisiana’s signature oaks, eating dinner at a polished table after he’d come home from work. At Christmas, we’d get an imported pine tree, and we’d open presents wearing red flannel (welcome to my imagination, where Tommy Hilfiger lives, breathes, and outfits picturesque moments).
Three months after we broke up, Matt got engaged to his now-wife.
Sure, when I saw this all online (thank you, Facebook), my jaw hit the floor — he’d been cheating on me (and her) the entire time. But, in a way, it served as closure for me. He was never the one for me, even if it took me many, many times to realize it.
After Matt and I broke up for the final time, I started seeing a therapist. Matt was one in a collection of men that I’d dated that had manipulated me so much; I didn’t understand who I was anymore.
I had gone from being this confident, secure woman, to not even understanding my feelings. I kept asking my therapist if my feelings were “normal” or “correct,” and it took me nearly two years to understand that however I’m feeling is the right way to feel.
Today, my life is really different than how it was when I was dating Matt. I spent a lot of energy trying to fit myself into a mold that I thought would make him love me. I thought that if he saw what a great cook I was, or that I was funny, he’d want to marry me, and things would finally be okay.
But nothing is ever okay if you can’t just be yourself. And sometimes, I’m still learning exactly who I am. I do know, though, that even though he is married to someone else, his life isn’t picture-perfect. And just because I’m single, doesn’t mean things are bad. I’m glad that I didn’t settle — there’s no way I could have lived the rest of my life pretending to be someone I’m not.
Besides, the real me is pretty fucking cool.
And since I’m so excited for this book, and that it’s the first day of fall (my favorite season)… I’m GIVING AWAY a printed copy of Lemon Drops (I’ll inscribe it, if you wish).
To enter for the giveaway, please visit the Lemon Drops page on Amazon, and leave a review by Wednesday at midnight. Whether you’ve just been a fan of my blog, my previous books, or you’ve read or heard my poetry, let me know how you feel! I’ll randomly select a number and post the winner on Thursday’s blog post!